I sit and think. If I think I worry. If I worry I find I can’t make decisions and can’t get things done. And If I can’t get things done I sit and think. It is a nice little circle of inactivity that gets me through the day.
Thinking too much
I try to do the ‘morning pages’ exercise each morning. For those who don’t know, this is to write three A4 pages (about 750 words) as soon as possible every day. The aim is to clear the head of anything that might hinder a creative day. Although there are no strict rules, the point is to just write, and write without really thinking. And that’s my problem!
I find myself thinking as I write. Now we all need to think and engage our brains a little in this process, but only a little and as little as possible in this instance. A personal issue that I want to deal with is that I over think things. If I need to make a decision on something I will dither, procrastinate and generally argue from both sides and even invent some more. Weighing up the possibilities and choosing the best option is what I should do, but I will continue to think about the problem and never deal with it. That might be a slight exaggeration but those who know me might well see the truth in what I have said.
So when I find myself thinking during this daily practice I have to stop. If I think too much about what I am writing I am not letting my mind prepare itself for the day ahead.
I am finding that the less I think about what I write it is helping me make decisions during the day. I am writing, pouring out what is in my head, not editing, not censoring the words and simply going with things. This is a conscious effort on my part as I write and is affecting change in my behaviour. I don’t know the ins and outs of how the brain works, but I am seeing a benefit. Not thinking as I write the ‘morning pages’ is helping me make decisions. I am not over thinking as much when it is time to make a choice.
Journaling can help in a variety of ways. I am finding that journaling in the way advocated in ‘morning pages’ is helping me. I find it easier to decide to do something, or choose an option. I still think way too much and therefore lose a lot of time, but I am losing less time as I train my brain to just do.
Do you over think things? Have you found ways to deal with this?