Using my journal to reconnect with my vision, my goals and my projects. I had lost my way and needed to make a few signposts for myself. Plus a look into my old manuscript style spiritual journal.
I was feeling overwhelmed recently. When that happens I turn to the journal, or journals, or scraps of paper, or walls and make lists. This clears my head and I feel relaxed. I then find I have far too many lists and once again I feel overwhelmed. This is the danger of list addiction.
I’m an addict. It has been one day since my last list. Come and have a look at what I have been up to in this week’s journal video.
Several threads are woven and I can begin to see images appearing.
These scenes may or may not end up as reality, but they are there because seeds were sown. Seeds that have been sown on land tended for the past few weeks (and previous moon cycles).
I find it so difficult to wait. Cycles take time. Seeds grow at their own speed. Seasons come and go. So often, because of the wait, I forget to sow the seed, to tend the crop. My forgetfulness is often intentional. If I can’t have it now, I won’t bother.
My moon intentions and realisation cycle has helped. It’s a nice metaphor to hold, to remind me that I have no right to a field and harvest if I have not sown the seed or tended the land.
Doing the work does not guarantee a harvest. There are many variables. But I try. I learn. I understand. Every new moon cycle my wisdom is greater. Every lunar month I know a little more than the previous period of waxing and waning.
The August full moon rises, let me see if my crop is bearing fruit.
Things take a little longer than I expect. I seem to get my planning wrong with an unnerving regularity. I get a lot of other things wrong too, but those can be addressed in a different post or private apologies. As for my time planning, I should have got to grips with that by now.
Someone was once asked how long it takes to write a book. They replied with the answer, twice as long as you think it will. As a publisher and writer, I know this to be pretty much correct. I am beginning to realise that the same can be said of my other creative projects.
I am close to finishing a couple, but they have taken much longer than I expected. I haven’t been slacking or doing things that weren’t on the list, and yet they have still taken longer than expected. Today I was adding some proofing corrections to PDFs. After doing that it meant I could check off another item in the bullet journal. I was a step closer to completing my project.
It can be discouraging when things take longer than we think. However, when complete we can bask in the knowledge that a job has been well done. We didn’t cut the corners. We took the time and were productive.
Now it’s time for me to get back to my to-do list. I have a project to complete.