I seem to be struggling with a few things at the moment.
- So much I want to say, yet can’t.
- So much I want to do, yet can’t.
And all the reasons I can’t are out of my hands, out of my control. And I am finding it far too easy to focus on those negatives. And when I focus on the negatives I don’t say or do what I can. I wallow. I lose myself. It’s a downward spiral I have to avoid.
Thankfully there is art, there is journaling and there are my soundscapes and lyrics. I just have to find myself amongst the detritus of current circumstances. My future will be different.
The path is ahead of me is all I have ever wanted and desired. As the sun rises and crosses the heavens, so I follow my path.
So sorry you are in this glum and depressed place. It seems to me you struggled with mental health issues even before the pandemic. I am sure it is a heavy burden. Many of us are sad, lonely, and frustrated. Life has presented us with a problem we cant solve alone. We have to wait for the virus to end in its own time and/or a cure for the virus. I think what you say is so important. That you will continue with your journals and your art and songwriting. I am here thinking of you and sending hugs and love and hope. Many blessings, Suki
Thank you so much for your message and words of support, they mean so much. I am okay, just, like many, frustrated with the situation. Fortunately, I have a creative outlet to explore how I feel. And your gift of hope is gratefully received.